My Weight Loss Journey (Day 1)


Earlier today I said that I was going to come back and be brutally honest about my weight. I’ve spoken honestly about my mental health here on WP when I was blogging at A Kinder Way. I have no shame at all about my OCD diagnosis. Yet for some reason, talking honestly  about my weight carries some major shame. The funny thing is…I believe that my weight problem is predominately a mental issue.  A block if you will. A fear of letting go of a source of comfort (food) a fear of hurting myself (exercise) and a fear of failure (gaining the weight back).

I’ve lost weight before.  A lot. I just gain it back.  Every time.  I’ve battled my weight all of my life. Was put on a diet when I was in grade school and I’ve never really stopped dieting since. It’s something I’ve grown to resent because I’ve always looked at my weight as the one thing holding me back in life. Yet for some reason, I’ve never been able to conquer it. That’s why I know it’s mental. It’s that damn fear.

But today, even though I’m still fearful….I’m choosing to face that fear.  I’m choosing to believe that I can beat this once and for all. (And sharing it with the world here! 😉 )

I’m keeping it simple. Bare minimum.  I’m done with the quick fixes (South Beach, Carb Addicts, 5:2 and more) and I’m done making excuses. I want this to be the last time I lose weight so I’m going to do this the old fashion way. I’m going to take it day by day….meal by meal and make the absolute best choices that I can make in each moment.

I’m looking at this as a gift that I can give myself.  A way to show myself that I am worthy of the effort and hard work.

My FIRST goal: 25 pounds.

My Plan: Back to basics. Track my food and exercise. Stay in my calorie range. Drink my water. Eat breakfast. Practice yoga and meditation. Walk.

It’s that simple.

I’ll update in 1 month.

Thanks for Reading~






67 thoughts on “My Weight Loss Journey (Day 1)

  1. Hi Nikki. I’m right there with you and our goals at present are about the same. With mental health medications never help, they make you gain weight and keep it on or gain it back. Often, they work to make I difficult to for one to lose weight. Like you I’ve tried many plans etc. The best thing that worked for me was Herbal Magic. But it was soooo expensive, I would never go on their vitamins again. It’s seriously about $80.00 to $100 weekly plus huge membership fees. What I do continue with them is their diet. Essential, ensuring you keep small portions. Unlike many diets, you can eat carbs, proteins, vegggies, fats, dairy, and a treat each day. You are only limited in portion size and amount. For instance, I get proteins ( 5 oz chicken, 3 oz beef, 12 oz Greek yogurt etc.) but I can have that protein amount, three times in a day. For me it’s the best because I’m not tempted because I get a treat. Best of luck on your weight loss journey. You can do it! Even a small walk helps I’m told!

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    1. Portions are a HUG issue for me. The food I eat on a day to day basis is not unhealthy. I actually follow a great diet. I remember years and years ago a DR. telling me that you can in fact over-eat healthy food. 😉 That’s my issue. Always has been. Thanks for your comment Mandi and for sharing your plan. I wish you luck and let’s keep each other posted! 🙂

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      1. I practice moderation to maintain a healthy weight, and to keep my metabolism running smoothly. I do avoid sweets and deep fried foods. Neither of which is any good for us. I also fit in a workout routine six days a week. I alternate between weight training for my upper body and the treadmill for my lower body.

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  2. Oh Nikki much love and blessings to you!! This seems like a lovely way to nurture yourself. 🙂
    It sounds so smart to keep it simple. And also (just because of who I am) I’d encourage you to focus on gentle kindness and forgiveness.

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  3. Day by day, step by step, back to basics and keeping it simple … sounds like a great plan to me Nikki. You can do this, I have no doubts. And I’ll be with you every step of the way. Go girl! xo

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    1. Thank you Miri. I know it’s time and by putting it out there for the world to see…I hope to feel some accountability. Not that this will work if it’s for anyone by me. I know that for sure. But to have a place to report back to is a good feeling. I’m counting on doing lots of bragging. 😉 😉 😉

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  4. As always, thank you for your vulnerability and honesty 🙂 I too don’t like to talk about my weight, whether it’s in terms of gains or losses. It just feels too personal for me, but I’m always impressed and inspired by those who can candidly talk about their own progress and setbacks. You’ve got this!

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    1. Thank you Amanda. In your line of work i’m sure you’ve seen many people who have these mental blocks about weight loss. I’m a believer that it’s an emotional and mental issue. Clear out those things and you can make huge changes. ❤

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  5. You go Nikki! I actually want to join you in this journey! I’ve been battling with my weight too and I just couldnt get myself to be consistent with doing exercise and in being more cautious with my food intake.
    It’s great that your doing it for no one else but yourself. I agree with you! We should do it not to please other people but because we owe it to ourselves. Ofcourse it’s great to feel accepted the way we are, but it’s much better if we can give this healthier self as a gift to our own selves.
    All the best Nikki! I really pray that we beat this weight battle! I’ll be your cheerleader 😊

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    1. And I’ll be yours! I have a long road ahead of me and I appreciate the support. The great news is that my guys are both trying to get in shape as well. It’s much easier for them to drop the pounds though so I need my girls to back me up! 😉 Ha!

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      1. Yeah! It’s so easy for them…my hubby jogs and plays basketball everyday… man, he is sexier than I am! LOL! I really need to start doing something to shed off these extra pounds. It’s good to know I have someone doing the same thing too… 🙂

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  6. It’s totally mental! I’m sick at the moment so of course that means I should eat all of the comfort food in my house… right? It doesn’t count if I’m unwell. Of course I can’t exercise either, that’s a shame. 😳 Then I feel horrible and it is all harder to get going once I feel better. Go for it Nikki! One day at a time.

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  7. I’m honest about my weight. I have to be. If you’re on the same planet with me my butt is probably pushing over on to your seat. But your bravery in committing to losing weight and telling us all about it is mind boggling to me. Kiddo, if you can announce you’re going to lose weight here then I have no doubt you’ll do it. If I can help in any way, any time, just holler.

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  8. I am right there with you. I am just going to do the best I can, day by day, hour by hour. I want to keep, foremost in my mind, making the healthiest choices I can each time I plan a meal or take a bite. But I will not put myself on a guilt trip, I will not feel ashamed if I decide to have a milk shake instead of another glass of water, and I will spill no tears standing on a scale. Not doing that ever again. No weekly weigh-ins for me. No stressing over counting things. Just making healthier choices about food and beverages. Exercise is not a real option for me at this time so I will work on what I can control, food, instead.

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    1. Choices are what it all comes down to and part of that is deciding what’s right for you. I struggle with this daily. I have a tendency to think that there is some secret out there and if I could just find it…it would work. But the truth is…you have to find what works for you and stick with it. It’s that simple…not easy…simple. ❤


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  10. Oh my goodness! I resonate so much with you! I lost 20+ lbs the summer after eight grade. I lost those 20 lbs by eating 1,200 calories and running track for an hour. I don’t know how I did it, but I know that it was effective BUT so bad for my mental. I became increasingly insecure about every morsel of food I ate. So still in the recovery phase, I’ve gained the pounds back on and trying to find a way to lose this weight in a gradual but most importantly HEALTHY and SUSTAINABLE way. I sincerely hope that you will find the routine that works for you. You’ve lost weight before, so you can definitely do it! Best of luck! Let’s make 2017 the best year yet! Xo, Stephanie


  11. I have started my journey today and my blog. I am looking at blogs for inspiration and bumped into yours. I know how you feel exactly and it gives me comfort knowing people feel the same as me.

    Much love xxx


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