Balanced (Healthy) Living Update

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It’s that time again…time for an honest look at my last week of living a balanced and healthy life. Well it’s actually 2 weeks isn’t it? Hmm…that’s not a great sign is it?

So let’s jump in….. I did the bare minimum in the way of healthy living the first week. (The second week things took a turn for the better)

I ate breakfast every day. I drank all my water every day. I ate a healthy lunch everyday.

The rest was hit and miss.  My weight is up 2 pounds but it’s that hellish time of the month for me so that’s to be expected. I’d wager that those 2 pounds will be gone after. BUT for the record I will log them.

The last couple of weeks have been stressful and crazy and I felt very much in a slump. I wasn’t blogging or being a good reader to the blogs I follow. I’ve been binge watching a show and crocheting a lot. I was worked up about the anniversary of my Dad’s death and other things I’m not going to discuss.

But the bottom line is that I made the choice not to log my calories or practice yoga or go for that walk. I own that.

The biggest thing that happened over these last two weeks has nothing to do with goals or planning or eating or any of the things I’ve talked about. It was a very eye opening moment for me….

I decided that I wanted to start writing in a journal again. So I sat there looking at a bunch of notebooks (Some quite pretty) that really just represented a bunch of half-assed attempts at journaling. I picked out a small pretty one and opened it up. The date was October 2012. I started reading and after about 5 pages I set it down and just sat there dumbfounded.

It was 4 years ago almost to the date and I was writing about all these things I wanted to accomplish. I had all these plans and there was so much passion behind my words.

The thing is…those are the same words I’m saying today. The same plans. The same hopes. The same dreams. The same goals. The same passion.

I have not accomplished any of those things.

My first thought was what a waste of time. I could be 4 years ahead of the game right now had I started then. It’s harder now because I have four more years of crap added on to me through weight and age and just life in general.

My first thought was that I could be where I want to be right now had I started and stuck with it.

I felt quite defeated and really really mad at myself.

Then I took a deep breath and thought…LEARN something from this!!  Don’t be that girl from 4 years ago.  You know better now. You know more now. You are stronger now. Don’t waste another 4 years.

So that’s were I am today. Refusing to waste another 4 years. I’m going to do this. I’m making the changes.  I’ve done more in the name of healthy living in the last week than I have in the last year. I’m making the changes. Small….steady….consistent changes.  I have not accomplished all my goals each week, but the ones I have, I’ve stuck to like glue. That’s how you change your life. ONE healthy choice after another, until it’s no longer a choice…it’s your life.

I’m not the girl from 4 years ago and refuse to look back 4 years from now and feel that same shame again.

The 1st BIG goal remains the same: 25 pounds. (23 to go)

But even more important I am focused on finding that perfect balance of mental, physical and emotional health. I want to be centered and peaceful. The weight loss is a side effect. I believe it will happen quite naturally when I find that balance.

This weeks goals: Yoga. Meditation. Journaling. Getting outside as much as possible. Eating breakfast. Drinking my water. Portion control.

What about you? Are you finding a healthy balance in your life?

nikkisig

 


19 thoughts on “Balanced (Healthy) Living Update

  1. Hi Nikki, it’s a struggle – life I mean. Women especially, have a way of beating themselves up over everything, as though we could ever achieve all the goals we set ourselves. You are doing great, because you are doing something. Every week where you make one small change is a victory. Own it, celebrate (not with chocolate) it. You deserve it. Don’t look back, that isn’t they way you are going. Be kind to yourself. Barbara xx

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    1. That is EXACTLY how I ended things with myself. 😉 I’m certainly not going to waste anymore time and spending even a second beating myself up is totally wasting time! I swear…not beating myself up! 🙂 I’m far too awesome to do that. Ha!! 😉 😉
      Thanks for your support Barbara! ❤

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  2. I’ve been keeping a journal for the past five years and I think if I looked back and re-read them I’d probably find the same as you, lots of hopes and dreams undone. BUT there’s no point saying ‘what if’ or wishing we’d made better use of our time. What’s important is our focus now and looking ahead. Stop beating yourself up Nikki (that’s what my hubby always says to me). 😊 You WILL get there, slowly but surely. Big hugs to you. xo

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    1. No self inflicted beating…I promise. Not about to waste anymore time on that sort of thing. This was a huge eye opening moment for me and what it taught me was to act..not sit around and bitch and moan….ACT! Your husband sounds like a great guy Miri. Thank you for all the support and encouragement. ❤

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  3. It is easy to look for evidence for what you didn’t accomplish in the last 4 years and make yourself feel bad. I used to beat myself up all the time with the should of game. What did you do during this time? You seem like a very kind person and I bet you spent that time doing something for others. There is no perfect balance in life. There is here and now and loving yourself just exactly the way you are.

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    1. You are so kind. Thank you for thinking such nice things about me. I’ve done a lot of thinking over the last 4 years. A lot of work on my OCD and anxiety which in truth is what stops me most of the time. I think you just inspired a blog post for me. ❤

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  4. I keep telling myself that it is up to me to make the changes I want to in my life, it is my choice. I just have to do it ! I am the world’s best procrastinator of all time, and this I need to stop. You are on the right track Nikki, soon everything you wish to do will be a lifestyle change. If you have a bad day, there is the next day 🙂 There is nothing wrong with baby steps. Keep going my friend.

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  5. Hi Nikki!! I’m back on the weight loss train too. Over the summer I packed on almost 10 lbs and I’m taking control to have that back off by Memorial Day weekend 2017, since I’m spending it down the shore with some girlfriends and I need to look my best in that bikini! You’re not alone but you know you can do this. 🙂

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  6. I am a strong believer that once things don’t go the way we planned them, it’s just not that time yet. 🙂 We take action when we tell ourselves that we are ready!
    And you shouldn’t take it so sadly, OK you didn’t do those things then, you’ve grown, you know what is right for you now- and you WILL make it happen NOW for the right reasons! 😉
    We always do (or don’t do) things for a reason. Many times we are not aware of them, but they do exist! 😀 Just keep doing the best you can and everything will be just the way it is supposed to be! 😀

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  7. I lost 40 Ibs about 18 months ago. I’ve kept the weight off and believe that I won’t put it back on.

    I too had been thinking about and then deciding to and failing loose the weight for a while. I couldn’t do it until I was really motivated and decided to choose a healthy life, over a quick fix diet. You’ll get there. Keep trying. We’re all different, one size doesn’t fit all.

    I found calorie counting was the secret for me. I count my calories every day. I have a target that I aim not to exceed. I don’t stay within in it every day, but counting the calories reminds me whether I am on track or not and drives me to make better choices. When I go over my limit I don’t beat myself up. I just accept that it was my choice and if I want to loose/maintain my weight I should choose not to eat too much more often than I choose to over eat.

    Remember small changes have impact over time. Good luck. You’ll get there!

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