Owning My OCD – Like A Boss

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I had an experience this weekend that really opened my eyes about the progress I’ve made with my OCD. I’ve talked at great lengths openly and honestly here about my OCD diagnosis and how it has affected my life. I’ve shared in details with my online tribe how it makes me feel and how misunderstood OCD is. BUT I don’t talk about it a lot in my private life. It’s so much harder to explain to someone standing in front of you how OCD really is. It feels very…exposed… and it makes me feel very vulnerable.

Well…..

This past weekend I went to check the mail and noticed my neighbor who is moving soon standing in her driveway. I waved…she waved and then a bit of chatter started up. We talked about her having a potential yard sale and about why she is moving. We gabbed for a few and then she started talking about her (adult) daughter. She pretty well told me her daughters whole life story and how stressed this move is making her..but then she said….

She is OCD about that and she…..

I couldn’t help myself. I interrupted. Β ‘Is she really OCD, like diagnosed or are you saying she is particular? Because I have OCD.’

I wasn’t snarky. I wasn’t rude. I didn’t say it in a bitchy way. I just flat out said it.

She stopped and said, ‘She isn’t diagnosed. She should be. She’s seeing someone about it’

The conversation moved on a bit but looped back…

She asked me when I was diagnosed. I told her. She asked me what kind of OCD I had. I told her.

We moved on again to something else and then she brought it back up.

She asked me if I took medication for it. I told her. I also explained that there is no cure for OCD. No magic pill. That some people take anti anxiety meds for it, but there is no OCD pill.

She was interested and probably shared more about her daughter than she should have, but it will never go further than me.

Does her daughter have OCD? Maybe.

Did I stand in my truth? Hell yes.

Not only did I own my OCD, but I shared my story. Not all of it, but enough of it. I did it without feeling like I was going to break down. I did it with peace in my heart and strength in my voice. I educated someone who probably needed a little more info than she had. I did all of this with NO shame and ya know what? I walked away from that conversation with so much pride and a new found understanding of how far I’ve come from a life controlled by OCD.

I owned my OCD…Like a boss.

Thanks for reading~

nikkisig


54 thoughts on “Owning My OCD – Like A Boss

  1. It’s so wonderful that when you came to a place where you were ready to share your story with someone face-to-face, along came somebody who needed to share it. I’m sure that she was grateful to run into you that day. πŸ™‚ Good for you for owning your story…like a boss!

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  2. Hello Nikki,
    As a newcomer to your site, I hadn’t known about your history with OCD so thank you for sharing this honest post now.
    What an uplifting post and I can feel your pride through your words. It’s a huge deal to have clearly made such progress and you have every right to be proud of yourself.
    Thank you sharing your vulnerability… it’s the best healer for us all when we can share these parts of us.
    All the best…
    Di πŸ’πŸŒŸπŸŒŸ

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      1. You are so welcome Nikki. Thank you for your lovely reply
        And can I just say thank you again for featuring me last week. Someone stopped by and is now following as they said they found me from your site.
        Wonderful, generous thing you do in your posts of note.
        Thank you and have a lovely week πŸ’•πŸŒŸπŸ’•

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  3. I just wrote a post about OCD and it was amazing how people commented similarly to your ex-neighbor- the difference in the all consuming reality of OCD and having similar traits(being particular, as you said)

    It kind of shocks me how people think it’s just a matter of cleaning really well or having impeccable hygiene.

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