I am not a place for cowards

 

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I stumbled on to this quote recently and it truly represents how I feel about myself. I don’t want to come off as melodramatic…it’s more  realistic really.

Full Quote:

‘I am a world that cannot be explored in one day. I am not a place for cowards.’

~Caitlyn Siehl

I know who I am.  I know that I’m not for the weak at heart, the easily frustrated or for quitters…or cowards.  I also know that I’m worth the effort.  The good I bring to the table far outweighs the bad.  If someone scares easily…they may not think this is true, but that’s for them to decide, not me. What’s the Shrek line?

Ogres are like onions!  Layers. Onions have layers. Ogres have layers.

You get it? We both have layers.”

At first glance I probably come off as friendly, sweet, funny and happy.  All really nice things.  And I am ALL of those things.  Trust me.

But I also have days where I’m riddled with anxiety and that makes me nervous, edgy, explosive and negative. All my energy is put into staying inside my skin.

I’m moody, loud, silly, quiet, helpful, emotional, deeply compassionate, strong, empathetic, obsessive, goofy, sensitive, honest, sarcastic and of course kind. (to name a few)

I can be the silliest, happiest person you’ve been around or someone you may want to slowly back away from.  I cry and swear when I’m happy, scared, sad and mad.  I can be jealous and envious. I laugh..hard…often at my own jokes.

I ‘m loyal to a fault. Once I love you, it will take something truly awful…or many awful things to make me stop.

I’m one of those people that others think they have pegged very quickly.  They don’t.  It’s ok.  I don’t have anything to prove.

I’m an onion.

I am a world that cannot be explored in one day. I am not a place for cowards.

But I’m worth it.

(and so are you)

Thanks for reading~

nikkibluesig


32 thoughts on “I am not a place for cowards

  1. You left off talented, intelligent, beautiful and courageous. You are absolutely worth the time it takes to explore your layers, and like a young onion, you are constantly adding new unexplored layers. I love you and all your layers ❤

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  2. Hello Nikki,
    What a lovely post getting to see your layers. Thank you for sharing them with us and I think it’s quite lovely being many things wrapped up in one beautiful parcel.
    Take care,
    Di 💐💜

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  3. Wait, did I write this?!! You have to read a couple of blog posts I wrote, it’s spooky how similar we think. Love your honesty, courage and writing! We would be friends. 🙂

    http://writerbeat.com/articles/16921-Smoke-and-Mirrors-nbsp-

    https://www.elephantjournal.com/2017/06/you-cant-love-me-if-youre-afraid-of-the-dark/
    http://thoughtcatalog.com/natalie-brooke-breazeale/2017/06/tell-me-will-you-be-able-to-handle-my-darkness/

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  4. Omg! I love this quote! I hve thought of myself as an onion for years. And always along the same lines as you have written about here. I always feel like I am complicated. There is the on-the-surface Kelly , then there is the beneath the surface Kelly, then the heart of what makes me this Kelly. To really know Me! You have to invest the time, the listening and the desire to communicate and discuss more than just polite conversation. Quite honestly, most people don’t want to invest the time to really get to know any other person on a more intimate level anymore. I am so grateful to have you as my friend, a friend who does take time and interest to truly discover who I am and what I am all about. This is one of my favorite blogs that you have written! 💛💛💛💛

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